#THEHIGHBAR Week 2: Fun + Fear = Adventure

One of Richard’s birthday gifts was horseback riding at a nearby ranch.  I had mentioned wanting to do this a couple of months ago, and he graciously granted my wish.

It’s been over 30 years since I’ve been on a horse. We were staying at Tall Timber Lodge in Durango, Colorado.  It was true rustic. No phones, no televisions.  The only way in and out was by train or helicopter.  But spoiled rustic.  Only twelve cabins, great food and helicopter rides to the mountain top for lunch.  Our then nine-year old son and I went horseback riding with a grizzled guide who “knew the ropes,” so to speak. I do not recall any instructions, just an easy ride through the woods.

Fast forw2020-08-05 20.29.41 (2)ard to last week.  I announced my novitiate status to the Marshall Creek Ranch staff.   Folks were very accommodating and assigned me to Blackjack, a gentle horse who reportedly has been at the ranch the longest. 

Our guides gave many instructions, most of which I remembered. Hold on to the saddle horn with my left hand, and to the reins with my right.  Let the reins slack except to instruct the horse.  Steer right or left. Pull to slow or stop.  I thought it was interesting that, if you kept pulling after the horse stopped, he thinks you want him to go reverse.  Sure enough, Blackjack started walking backwards when I did not loosen the rein.

When crossing streams, lean backward on the downhill and forward on the uphill. The one instruction I forgot was how to trot. I did not stand straight as earlier told, but leaned forward. The first time we trotted, I bounced on that saddle like a paddle ball tethered by thin elastic to a wooden paddle.  You know, the cheap toy we had that entertained us for hours until the elastic broke. Luckily, the guide corrected me and I bounced a lot less.  I still bounced, though, and my bruised sitting bones reminded me of the ride for the rest of the week.  In fact, my entire body ached for several days.

The trails were dry, the woods were quietly preparing for sunset, and a couple of deer delighted us with their gentle presence.  It was fun riding with Richard. This is literally his neck of the woods. He does frequent trail runs, and he knows each section very well.  He showed us short cuts that he has taken, identified persimmons and blackberry bushes , described what was just beyond the trees, and pointed out numerous funnel spiders.  The funnel-shaped webs were on the ground to capture unsuspecting critters . . . or horse riders.  I am not keen on spiders.

I was trying to come up with a word to describe this experience.  FUN was the first word.  Not the giddy kind of fun where you can’t stop laughing. It was the fun of something-new-is-happening, of how-exciting-is-this! fun.  I paid attention to everything around me, and I was keenly aware of the uniqueness of each moment.

But there was also another word.  FEAR.  Not frightening and abject fear, but the fear that I might not be able to handle a problem.  I was nervous about falling off Blackjack. I tried taking IPhone pics, but was afraid I’d drop the phone. My water bottle hardly left the saddle bag.  I never let go of the saddle horn or reins. Never.

I realized the word I was looking for is ADVENTURE.  Adventure is when the awe of an experience walks hand in hand with fear yet you don’t want it to end.   And, when the experience does end, you think, “I DID IT!”  Would I do it again?  Of course!   

Thank you, Richard, for giving me ADVENTURE for my birthday!

Horizon

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The mathematician surmises the curve
separating sky and sea
and he declares

The earth is round

The islander witnesses the rendezvous
joining a weary sun and the Pacific
and she declares

This spectacle is divine

The mariner scans the skyline
demarcating water and the heavens
and he hopes

Our land is approaching

I behold your newborn eyes
adapting from a fluid world to lands yet unseen
and I testify

Life begins anew

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For Rocco Bonifacio Senelly, born on February 17, 2015.  Welcome to Gaia, dear grandson.

Arrival at Baggage Claim C

I’m reposting something I did exactly one year ago.  I don’t have enough to do a new one, so this will have to do.  That’s okay, isn’t it?

He shifted his weight in the third chair of the single pew at Baggage Claim C.  He was amazed at how these thin seats initially looked comfortable, but soon made him squirm to find a good position.  His elbows banged up against the metal arms on both sides of his seat.  Why do humans intentionally design discomfort?

“Flight 0804 has arrived,” the automated voice announced to the air.  “Baggage can be claimed at Baggage Claim C.  For passengers flying to another destination, please check the consoles located throughout the terminal.”

He was expecting many important people arriving on this flight.  Dignitaries, financiers, artists and musicians were listed on the manifest.  But he was especially interested in a woman he had yet to meet.  Her postcards always managed to reach him, bits of her life scribbled on the backs of beaches, mountains and cities.  Her simplicity intrigued him.

“I like this town.  I may stay here awhile.”

“I didn’t realize how much this beach meant to me.”

“These mountains must reach heaven.”

The tired-looking travelers started filing in one by one, pushing the turnstyle that ended their journeys.  He recognized the young senator from Illinois who will lead a nation, and another man who will challenge Israel’s sovereignty.  He smiled fondly at a dark colored man who will sing about how wonderful life is, and nodded briefly at a man whose baseball career will be tainted by his credibility before lawmakers.

He stood when a small woman came through, carrying an overstuffed red purse and a slim computer bag.  She seemed so . . .  ordinary next to these other destinies.  Yet he recognized her by her expectant glances at different faces, and a small smile that breathed anticipation.

She set her bags down near the baggage conveyer and ran her fingers through her hair.  She was business-like in her movements, yet bent down to talk to a little Asian boy who will star in a TV series about being lost.

She saw him walking towards her, and her smile broadened.  “I knew you’d be here,” she murmured when he stood a few inches away.

He gently placed his hands on her shoulders, and said quietly, “Welcome to Gaia, child.”  They hugged as old friends do when time is of no essence.

“Let me help you with your bags,” he offered, as they waited for the conveyer to deliver her life.

a birthday present to myself

Arrival at Baggage Claim C

He shifted his weight in the third chair of the single pew at Baggage Claim C.  He was amazed at how these thin seats initially looked comfortable, but soon made him squirm to find a good position.  His elbows banged up against the metal arms on both sides of his seat.  Why do humans intentionally design discomfort? 

“Flight 0804 has arrived,” the automated voice announced to the air.  “Baggage can be claimed at Baggage Claim C.  For passengers flying to another destination, please check the consoles located throughout the terminal.”

He was expecting many important people arriving on this flight.  Dignitaries, financiers, artists and musicians were listed on the manifest.  But he was especially interested in a woman he had yet to meet.  Her postcards always managed to reach him, bits of her life scribbled on the backs of beaches, mountains and cities.  Her simplicity intrigued him. 

“I like this town.  I may stay here awhile.” 

“I didn’t realize how much this beach meant to me.”

“These mountains must reach heaven.”

The tired-looking travelers started filing in one by one, pushing the turnstyle that ended their journeys.  He recognized the young senator from Illinois who will lead a nation, and another man who will challenge Israel’s sovereignty.  He smiled fondly at a dark colored man who will sing about how wonderful life is, and nodded briefly at a man whose baseball career will be tainted by his credibility before lawmakers.

He stood when a small woman came through, carrying an overstuffed red purse and a slim computer bag.  She seemed so . . .  ordinary next to these other destinies.  Yet he recognized her by her expectant glances at different faces, and a small smile that breathed anticipation. 

She set her bags down near the baggage conveyer and ran her fingers through her hair.  She was business-like in her movements, yet bent down to talk to a little Asian boy who will star in a TV series about being lost. 

She saw him walking towards her, and her smile broadened.  “I knew you’d be here,” she murmured when he stood a few inches away. 

He gently placed his hands on her shoulders, and said quietly, “Welcome to Gaia, child.”  They hugged as old friends do when time is of no essence.

“Let me help you with your bags,” he offered, as they waited for the conveyer to deliver her life.

a birthday present to myself